It is inevitable. At some point in our lives we have all faced or will be faced with a life altering event. Whether it be the death of a loved one, serious illness, or something else that will remind us of what really matters in life. In the blink of an eye, everything can change. These experiences can teach us all valuable lessons, help to discover inner strength that we never knew we had. Further helping to cement what is truly important.
Taking deep breathes and inhaling the world around you is a necessity I think we all have to work on doing more often.
Becoming a mother is a life changing event in a woman's life. I was blessed to be a mother of 2 healthy children.
This past week was definitely another one of those times for me. While sitting in the Children's Hospital with my boy. I seen a trama victim come in with half of his face bitten by a Rotweiler who was no older than 7 with his mother in hysterics behind him. Many many children with cancer. A little 4 year old girl that had burns on the lower half of her body and was in for cardiac arrest. All around me children that did not deserve to be in such pain. I knew my son would be OK but for many of these other parents they would not be as lucky. My heart hurt for every single one of them and many times I had tears in my eyes just thinking about it. Granted it is sad when anyone gets ill but there is something about these little innocent lives that should not have to go through any of this. They should be able to play outside, have friends and just enjoy life. Not spend a portion of their lives or entire lives in a hospital.
I sat their reflecting a lot on all that is important to me. I know now never to let petty human behavior effect me. If someone brings negativity into your world in anyway more than likely they should not be there. Life is way to short not to appreciated everyone around you. I want to become a healthier version on myself, I need to get to a OB/Gyn. That has long been over due. I was afraid to hear that my pre-cancerous cells on my cervix have changed. So I have avoided going for the past 2 years due to not wanting to know. I am still scared out of my mind but know this is something I must do. I need to quit smoking, lose some weight and get my diabetes in check. Not only do I need to do this for myself, but I have 2 wonderful kids that need a mother and friends and family to think of as well. I am no longer going to be afraid to get close to people in fear of losing them to a tragedy. I lost 4 friends while in HS that were all in the same car and hit a tree on the corner of my home it was 11:05 at night. I am sorry that I went outside to see what happened. My friend Cheech was killed by a drunk driver crossing the road a fews year later. Many things happen that change who you are. But seeing those kids that may not get to experience the good life has to offer. Makes it easier for me to get through all of my past and want to just look towards the further on a more positive note. Sorry I got lost rambling a bit. Inspiration to be a better person can be found in the most unlikely of places.
