Kiddos

Yesterday was J's first day home from school for summer break. She was incredibly bored and wanting to be in school which is a terrific thing that she loves it that much. Once her brother got home hell broke loose, they could not get along with each other for anything.  As long as I kept them separated they were both fine. I shouldn't have to play referrer all day in order to keep the home somewhat sane. I sure hope the summer turns out much better than how it has started. On a more positive note, today was the Summer read-a-thon kick off over at the kids school. I headed over there for that. The entire school gave a wonderful song performance prior to heading over to there blankets for quiet reading time. 

 I sat out and read a chapter or so of my Vampire Diaries book before my little one got bored and asked to come home. She had to make sure she said good-bye again to all of her teachers and helpers along the way, as well as giving hugs to every person she knew lol. Just being her adorable self. T has about another hour left of school today and tomorrow is his last day before summer break it also happens to be his b-day tomorrow but we are celebrating that on the weekend. My parents are coming up for it as well. I just wish he would behave himself. The struggles of dealing with a child with ADHD can be immense at times. So far this week is not one of his better weeks. He has been grounded from outside play for the past 2 days and I really do not want to make it go into a 3rd day but he cant seem to pull himself together. All I am asking him to do is stop talking back and punching things when he gets upset but that is not working at this time. Save me now before I go completely insane. 

As time goes by!

My son at birth!

My Daughter at 6 weeks old!

I can't fathom where the time goes. Today my little princess has graduated from kindergarten.  Just the word "kindergarten" sound cute! The first year of school was meant for her to learn how to share and care, make new friends and spend some time on their own, away from the warm cocoon of mommy and home. It is a great opportunity for her to learn new things on their own, ask questions and get the answers. It is a stepping-stone for future education. Graduating from Kindergarten is a big deal. It's the official end of the "baby" years as my little princess become more independent by starting 1st grade. However, Life is not just about learning to read and write. They are important, but more so is love and friendship. The school places great emphasis on being part of the community. My little girl is ready now to move on to the next phase of her education. but I hope she remembers the fun, joy and happiness. The learning of numbers, shapes, letters, words and the world around you, and the great friends you have made along the way. The ceremony they had today was way to adorable for words. The tear came down my face as they played Let them be little by Lonestar as they were showing there baby pictures. The day was wonderful.

My terrific son is graduating from the 3rd grade, which I can hardly believe. It seriously only feels like a few weeks ago they were both tiny and in my arms.  One more year and he will be in the double digit age group. *sad face* but on the bright side each year brings more memories and lifetime milestones. 

Both of them today!

Motherhood

As I sit inside my nice air conditioned home on this amazingly hot early June day, I've been reflecting a bit on what being a mom means to me. How it has changed me, what it has taught me, what it still has to teach me.  Laundry  always needing to be done, school projects that need to be complete, housework that never seems to end are constant reminders of the daily responsibilities of a mother. The many duties that have no place on a resume as well as receiving no monetary compensation. Plus, all the work that you do that often gets un-noticed even by your husband and the children are still to small to understand the amount of work it takes to run the household. When they no longer call for mom over and over during a day, make constant demands, lose control. They will one day be adults themselves and perhaps parents. Then they will appreciate all that you have done. I have learned raising a family is a roller coaster ride through life with a mixed range of emotions joy, terror, hurt, love, comfort, happiness and so many other feelings. Being a parent is not always a bed of roses but attempting to focus on the positive instead of the frustration of the temper tantrum they just took makes a world of difference. I try to value what I do as a parent. 

I have learned flaws of my impatience, temper, and insecurity. I have had to learn to deal with those in an entirely new way. I am still learning. I will spend the rest of my life learning as my children grow and change. I am slowly coming to terms with no letting small moments of failure crush me. I need to let go of the idea of everything being perfect. Always wondering if I am doing the "Mom" thing right.  Everyone thinks they have the right way to raise children. But seriously at the end of the day, we are all just trying the best we can do with every daily change that comes are way. There is no needs for mommy wars and who is doing what right or wrong. We are all in this together and learning as we go.

What no one can understand unless they are a mother themselves is that just holding you child or getting a hug can make a huge positive change in your day. The way they do something cute or funny that makes you just smile inside and out. Waking up at 2am in the morning cause they want to climb into the bed with you. Getting the greatest joys out of the smallest things is what it means to be a mom.

It is about getting up early in the morning to fix them breakfast, get the ready for school and kiss them goodbye for the day as they get on the bus. Half way through the day realizing the house is to quiet and missing them dearly. Hearing the phone ring on the odd occasion seeing it is the school and hoping all is OK with the little people of your world.

It is watching Finding Nemo  as Marlon searches the vast ocean for his son as your eyes swell with tears, knowing you would search the ends of the earth to make sure your own children are safe. It means giving up things from the person you were before. Knowing that you are unconditionally loved in return.

I want to build a household of fun, wonderful memories, and good life lessons. I try to be a great mom, a fun mom and will work harder everyday to be the best mom I can be for my family. I aspire to be the kind of mom that my daughter will one day want to be,  one that my son looks for in a wife someday when they have kids.

Motherhood is definitely the hardest and most rewarding job a woman can have. Learning the human heart's capacity to love is one of the wonders that happen when you are a mom.

Just Another Weekend!

It has been a bit since my last entry, Just been caught in the whirlwind of life and have not had time to write until this point.  The 2010-2011 school year is about to come to a close. So things have been hectic with that alone. I am taken on even more duties being a PTO mom next year. Doing the packets still as well as laminating and webmaster, Plus much more. This past weekend over all was rather nice. Took the kids to see Kung Fu Panda 2 on Saturday. I was rather impressed and thought the film had a mass load of heart. So I went back and watched the first one which I personally have not seen. I liked that one as well but felt the second was a much stronger movie in my opinion. On Sunday I hosted a smallish BBQ  which over all went fairly well just a wee bit hectic on my end at first. My kiddos dancing around, while trying to cook on top of attempting to be personable to friends that were over, but once the cooking was out of the way all was good. It was time to sit and enjoy it and hang out. Monday was just basically a relaxing day.