Christmas Magick

As I watch the pretty snowflakes dance their way down from the sky.

The winter's wind whispers, thoughts of days gone by.

Magick is all around us if only we choice to see.

It is in the sweet sound of a child's laughter.

It is in their breathless anticipation.......

Listen a squeak on the stairs, could it be… is Santa there.

Knowing they better keep still for they cant make a peep, He does not leave toys. Unless you are asleep.

It is in the moments of all their Christmas wishes.

As the Christmas lights twinkle, shining brighter then the stars. 

We should all remember just how lucky we really are.

Wishing Everyone a bright and cheerful Christmas!!

Damien Echols, Inspiration of Hope

To begin with Damien was the so called ring leader of what is known as the West Memphis Three. For those not familiar with the case, it is about three teenaged boys wrongly convicted of the 1993 murders of three 8 year old Arkansas boys. Asserting that the children were killed as a part of a satanic ritual, Damien was sentence to death by lethal injection. Jessie MissKelley and Jason Baldwin were sentenced to life imprisonment. I first heard about the case eons ago on the MTV news, I was still pretty young at the time so it was only a passing thing at that time.

However, in recent years I have become obsessed with the gross miscarriage of Justice. 

This blog is not about the case however. It is about the wonderful human spirit of one Mr. Damien Echols.

It is not very often in life that you come across something so profound that you as a person want to completely change for the better. For myself that happened very recently with the release of Damien's book Life After Death. He is an amazing solid author, allowing the reader inside his world with first hand accounts of his youth as well as life on death row. 

The story should open your eyes to the fact that anyone could be convicted of a crime they did not commit. It is a story, incredibly hard to put down, he had me laughing one moment and in tears the next.  I know I am lucky, at the end of the day however I can walk away from this injustice, he will have to live with the nightmare of what he has went through for the rest of his life. It breaks my heart into million of pieces.

There was times during the book I was filled with horror, he touched so close to home on many levels. I was without a doubt an individual that stood out, still am to this day now being covered in tattoo's. I adore for many reason feeling it is a window into the soul of a person. You can learn who is judgmental without having to get to know them. Any who … back on track. During the late 80's/90's I dressed mostly in all black, listened to metal, came from a family not made of money.

My father busted his ass working in the produce department of a supermarket just to provide for our family. My mother would work various night jobs in order to remain home during the day for my brother and myself. 

We had massive issues while I was a teen, we never seen eye to eye, they did not understand me and thought I was going down the devil's path straight to trouble.  I was taken to psychologists, sent to crossroads and scared straight, all based of the fear of understanding or proper communication. If I was in the wrong place at the wrong time… it could of been me. There was many more similarities, but I will spare you all the details. 

I would love to understand how he continues to view the world with a resilient kind hearted spirit, not apathetic towards mankind. His will to survive, educate himself, becoming a better person while facing an unthinkable hell makes him a truly inspiring hero in my eyes. He is grateful for what he has in this life and does not seem bitter, which speaks volumes about his character. I can only hope for him to be exonerated and continues to allow us/me to read his writings.

For the first time in my life was I ever compelled to write a letter to someone I did not personally know. I absolutely had to and hope he received it. I appreciate all the little things now that we often complain about in our day to day lives. I am blessed to have had the freedom all my life to experience it.

I am trying to keep my anger in check knowing that I will only be harming myself from allowing that emotion to ever take over. I thank him for allowing me to see the world differently. I wish everyone would read this aspiring piece of literature. You will come away from reading this beautifully written memoir with hope and love. For me Damien will be remembered always as an inspiration and source of great talent. 

Enchanted Visions

My love for you, like a blanket, comforts me throughout the night, gently be stills my frights.

The sensation I feel every time your near, in your arms making all wrongs be gone.

I need you by my side, in everything I do, Until the worlds collide, my heart will be with you.

My love for you like an eagle, soars above all and boldly flies throughout the skies.

My love for you like a rose, full of beauty, passion, and pride.

If I don't have those things in life, I will fade away inside.

I want you to know I love you and I know you love me too.

Love will last forever, just as long as I'm with you.

1/20/99

Let it Be

If we ever have to lie, let it be in each others arms.

If we ever have to steal, let it be more time for us to be together.

If we ever have to cheat, let it be in death, so we can love and live together.....

Forever!

Longing for You

Last night in my thoughts, an image of you came in shimmering light.
My tears glistened in the reflection brought forth by the ache in my heart.

The dark drab clouds rolled in, separating me from the suns warmth.
Just as your departure did, keeping us from basking in each others smiles.

Oh the trembling in my soul, craving the gentleness of your touch.
The bitter chill of the emptiness, thirsting for the warmth of presence once again.

The picture of your return to me is yet to distant to touch but,  yet heavenly to imagine.

I hope in our absence from each other, our hearts will grow fonder.
The clouds outside, will shortly pass, clearing the skies for our bright reunion.

As my love for you is as real as the moon and stars.
You have burned my heart with your brightness, making me willing to surrender myself to you.

I will try to be all that you desire. For my love for you will be never-ending and shall continue to grow throughout the ages. From this time until forever.

But for now I must go and close my eyes to await the angels of sleep.
They seem to make the pain of your absence vanish for the time.
For in my dreams we walk together. Just as it should be.


"1999"

A Game

Broken dreams and shattered glass.

A consistent reminder of the past.

A road walked down by many.

Why do people lie or cheat?

To hurt, causing pain to others.

Why do so many human souls thrive on destroying another's dreams or ambitions?

So we then can live in fear of ever wanting to trust another human being.

This seems like a game in which certain people must play.

It is the game of shattering others thoughts and opinions on life. 

In order for them to see themselves in a different and better light.

written March 16th 1990

Bond of Love

Your art thy only love, same as I am yours.

Understand our thoughts together a they become as one.

Sealed in a bond, enriched by life

There isn't time passing us by, known only as divine,

See there that which is old but new, delicate yet strong, seldom but eternal.

Hold back the race of timer and feel its slow and steady pulse of life.

I am she of lasting love. You are he giving it only unto me.

That I know is in what we have shown.

Learning this together is how we continue to grow.

We are them who will never stand alone.

Remember us breaking free from the passage of time.

Embarking upon untold creations.

Hear my words, truth living out no lies.

There beyond are world they await for are arrival.

Come with me and hear with your minds eye.

Listen for they are calling.

I will seal this with a kiss and tear of blood. 

Forever we will have an eternal bond of love.

written May 27, 1992

Heartbreak

I wrote this back in  April 15, 1989 Yikes..... Yeah I was young then.

In a park where I did dwell, I met a boy I loved so well.
He came and took my heart away and set it free another day,

I saw a strange girl upon his knee, he told her things he never told me.

For now I know the reason why, the girl was prettier than I.
I ran straight home to cry on my bed.

Not a word to my mother was said.
My father came home late that night, he searched the house from left to right.
He ran upstair the door he broke.
To find me hanging by a rope.
On the dresser there was a note.

IT SAID:

Dig my grave and dig it deep.
Marble stone, from head to feet.
On the stone, write above.
Tell the world I died for .......... Love

Greatest Gift

A blazing sunrise, rising high above a beautiful cloudless sky.

This start the beginning of yet another new day.

In my mind another image of you came to me, An Image of us lying together,

Holding me ever nearer to your heart.

I can't help but wonder what you are feeling inside as we are lying there together.

To feel your tender kisses against my lips,

One can't help but notice the passion they contain.

The mere touch of your hand moving slowly over my skin until your hand comes to rest in mine,

Ignites a fire inside my very soul.

As we lay together saying nothing at all,

It is always amazing to me as to how much we actually do say.

Come to me and let me please you.

Fear not for you are loved and forever,

I shall protect you with my love for you.

Together we could soar above the clouds as we seek ecstasy in  the stars.

To melt into me as if you are a part of me, to feel my heart then beat in rhythm with yours.

To feel those loving arms around me once again.

Will be life's greatest gift.

Innocence

Little ones fast asleep for this moment, I'll forever keep.

Looking down on you from above, my bundles of innocence, the ones that I love.

I know time will go by all to fast, but these are the moments, I'll treasure always reliving the past.

With ten little fingers that from the very start will be reaching for tomorrow, but forever hold my heart.

But today I will hold my babies hands, cause babies grow so fast. Those hands will one day wave good-bye to me when your baby days have past.

I never will forget how much you mean to me or how much I adored you from the moment you came to be.

Even long before that you where both with in my heart as I carried you for nine months loving you right from the start.

I will savior every moment of your precious years and be forever grateful that you had come to me. Soon one day you will realize you are the world to me.

Sometimes I may get discouraged, because you are so small.

Leaving little finger prints or crayon marks on furniture and walls.

But everyday your growing and soon you will be so tall.

All these little prints and marks, will be difficult to recall.

So I will copy your little hand print, that I can put away.

So I will know how your fingers looked, on that special day.

I promise I will always do my best yo shower you both with love and be forever grateful that I have been blessed to know your love.

I love you both! *hugs* Mom

Forever

As I Lay in my bed, With the covers pulled up over my face to mask the tears that fall from the corners of my eyes, Due to having a broken heart of shattered dreams of what we could of been together.

I will forever remember all the promises you made to me ,you said we would last forever, but was it all a lie?

As you left,  forgetting  all about me was all to easy, its like I was never there at all.

I remember the painful words that day of our goodbyes, Having a knife put to my soul would of been less painful then letting you go. 

I will now let my tears continue to fall to the floor, Not knowing now if I wish to continue without your presence.

Why won’t you just get out of my head and leave me alone... all I ever wanted to do was love you and be within your arms. Why am I  continually tortured with the thought of you.

I’m lost in the furious sea of hopelessness. I had no choice but to fall in love with you, you had me before I even laid my eyes on you.  But even now, I find out that you still don’t know that I fell in love with you.