Motherhood

As I sit inside my nice air conditioned home on this amazingly hot early June day, I've been reflecting a bit on what being a mom means to me. How it has changed me, what it has taught me, what it still has to teach me.  Laundry  always needing to be done, school projects that need to be complete, housework that never seems to end are constant reminders of the daily responsibilities of a mother. The many duties that have no place on a resume as well as receiving no monetary compensation. Plus, all the work that you do that often gets un-noticed even by your husband and the children are still to small to understand the amount of work it takes to run the household. When they no longer call for mom over and over during a day, make constant demands, lose control. They will one day be adults themselves and perhaps parents. Then they will appreciate all that you have done. I have learned raising a family is a roller coaster ride through life with a mixed range of emotions joy, terror, hurt, love, comfort, happiness and so many other feelings. Being a parent is not always a bed of roses but attempting to focus on the positive instead of the frustration of the temper tantrum they just took makes a world of difference. I try to value what I do as a parent. 

I have learned flaws of my impatience, temper, and insecurity. I have had to learn to deal with those in an entirely new way. I am still learning. I will spend the rest of my life learning as my children grow and change. I am slowly coming to terms with no letting small moments of failure crush me. I need to let go of the idea of everything being perfect. Always wondering if I am doing the "Mom" thing right.  Everyone thinks they have the right way to raise children. But seriously at the end of the day, we are all just trying the best we can do with every daily change that comes are way. There is no needs for mommy wars and who is doing what right or wrong. We are all in this together and learning as we go.

What no one can understand unless they are a mother themselves is that just holding you child or getting a hug can make a huge positive change in your day. The way they do something cute or funny that makes you just smile inside and out. Waking up at 2am in the morning cause they want to climb into the bed with you. Getting the greatest joys out of the smallest things is what it means to be a mom.

It is about getting up early in the morning to fix them breakfast, get the ready for school and kiss them goodbye for the day as they get on the bus. Half way through the day realizing the house is to quiet and missing them dearly. Hearing the phone ring on the odd occasion seeing it is the school and hoping all is OK with the little people of your world.

It is watching Finding Nemo  as Marlon searches the vast ocean for his son as your eyes swell with tears, knowing you would search the ends of the earth to make sure your own children are safe. It means giving up things from the person you were before. Knowing that you are unconditionally loved in return.

I want to build a household of fun, wonderful memories, and good life lessons. I try to be a great mom, a fun mom and will work harder everyday to be the best mom I can be for my family. I aspire to be the kind of mom that my daughter will one day want to be,  one that my son looks for in a wife someday when they have kids.

Motherhood is definitely the hardest and most rewarding job a woman can have. Learning the human heart's capacity to love is one of the wonders that happen when you are a mom.