Actually not really, Anxiety sucks and I would like to wave good-bye to that negative emotion as well. It began small with knowing my boy needed a tonsillectomy. The more I learned about it and the after math pain the more stressed I became for him. In actuality this would not healthy for either of us if I allowed myself to show any form of fear. If I did it would cause a bigger concern to my 10 year old that is already worried out of his mind. So I suck it up at least around him and try to comfort all his fears. The insurance company informed me that my deductible has not been met for the year yet as well. What that means to me is I need to pay $1240.00 out of pocket come July 2nd. This is already on top of the one car needing brakes, needing a new exhaust, and having to take it through inspection UGH! T also needs glasses and at the moment we are living paycheck to paycheck. Trust me I am not trying to sound as if I am complaining, a lot of people have it much much worse.
But to me with an already existing anxiety disorder, it makes me constantly tense and on edge. I highly dislike this feeling of dread , always anticipating the worst. Muscle and tension headaches suck but my restless sleeping the past few days is probably the worst of it. I will be so happy when I can get rid of these feelings altogether. It seriously helps a lot for me to just get it out in writing. As if I am riding my problems into text formation. It may sound strange but it does help. I seriously think it is time for me to hit up the yoga classes at my gym.
Lately I am trying to get of what I deem as flaws with in myself, like anger, short temper & stubbornness. This is one I am definitely adding to the list. I would like only my positive sides to appear like my down to Earth, happy always laughing , optimistic outlook towards life. There is enough people in the world that bitch and complain about everything lol I do not need to add to the mix, besides life happens anyways and there is nothing I can do but try to find positive outcomes.
Awesome story I read that I wanted to share. That reinforces my want to be positive all the time.
A grandfather sat with his granddaughter at a café enjoying a cool drink. A stranger came up to them and informed them that he was new to town and wanted to know what kind of people lived there. The grandfather immediately asked what kind of people lived in the stranger’s old town. The stranger replied that people there were rude, hostile, and generally angry at everything and everyone. The grandfather then told the stranger that he would find that this town was pretty much the same way.
A few minutes later, another stranger approached the café and informed them that he was new to town and wanted to know what kind of people he would find. Again, the grandfather asked what kind of people lived in the stranger’s previous town. This stranger replied that his last town had great people who were always kind and helpful. The grandfather assured the stranger that the people of this town had those same traits.
Once the second stranger left, the granddaughter, who had been listening intently, asked her grandfather why he told the two strangers different things about the town. He replied that people bring with them their own influences and experiences and that these often affect us in how we perceive the world. If someone sees things negatively in one place, they will likely come to find these same things in another.
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